Published: January 27, 2015
Cody and Meg were inseparable.
Two peas in a pod.
Until . . . they weren’t anymore.
When her best friend Meg drinks a bottle of industrial-strength cleaner alone in a motel room, Cody is understandably shocked and devastated. She and Meg shared everything—so how was there no warning? But when Cody travels to Meg’s college town to pack up the belongings left behind, she discovers that there’s a lot that Meg never told her. About her old roommates, the sort of people Cody never would have met in her dead-end small town in Washington. About Ben McAllister, the boy with a guitar and a sneer, who broke Meg’s heart. And about an encrypted computer file that Cody can’t open—until she does, and suddenly everything Cody thought she knew about her best friend’s death gets thrown into question.
I rated this book five stars *****
This book pulls at your heart-strings from the very the very first sentence, ” The day after Meg died I received this letter, ‘I regret to inform you that I have had to take my own life.'”, and never lets go.
Cody and Meg have been best friends all their lives and Cody considered Meg’s mother her mother instead of Patricia, who most times couldn’t be bothered with motherly things. They were different yet everyone in town said they were like two peas in a pod, and that’s why Meg’s suicide hits Cody so hard. They had planned to go to the same college but things didn’t go as planned and Meg got a scholarship to a private school away from home while Cody went to the local community college. Meg’s parents ask Cody to go to the Meg’s off campus house where she shares space with a few roommates so she does and when first meeting the them doesn’t like them at all. Once inside Meg’s room she’s shocked about how neat it is and that it looks like someone has already done most of the packing. When asked about this, her roommates say that Meg left it that way. She finds out the Meg had a boyfriend for a short time and that he had broken her heart. When she meets Ben McAllister for the first time he hates him and lets him know why. He ***ked her friend and them dumped her.
While going through Meg’s computer Cody finds that there are missing emails and encrypted files and with the help of a nerdy roommate find out that Meg had been posting to a suicide support board and that someone was encouraging her so she makes it her goal to find this person and make him pay. During all of this and Ben are thrown together with some of the roommates and sparks start to fly. She dislikes Ben and likes him at the same time and feels disloyal to Meg for thinking about him. Both Cody and Ben have baggage from the past, more so Cody, but this brings them closer and without his knowledge or anyone elses, she goes onto the suicide support board hoping to smoke out Meg’s suicide mentor. She does and asks Ben to travel with her to the home of the man so she can confront him. He doesn’t like it but he does because he has developed strong feelings for her. She confronts the man and instead of driving back to Washington with Ben, calls her Mom and says she wants to come home NOW. Her mom arranges for a plane ticket and Cody flies home to leave Ben to drive the 1000 miles by himself. When she gets home she goes to Meg’s parents home and tells them everyone from the beginning and they tell her they knew about the suicide support board, it had been in the police report, but didn’t know the identity of the man. They tell Cody that Meg had depression but didn’t want her friends to know and that it came to her through Meg’s Mom who had it too, so Cody should not feel any responsiblity for Meg’s death. There was nothing anyone could have done once Meg made her final choice. Cody goes home and Ben drives up and all is forgiven and they confess their ***ked up love for one another and I cried like a baby. This book will remain with me for a very long time.